I am going to start thinking of the ways to rework my life and get things in as much order as possible before the new year so I can have a clean slate.
I have very good feelings for 2011
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
Sunday, December 12, 2010
"...Challenge makes you discover the gifts within you..." -Michael Beckwith during a lecture at CSUN
I went to a lecture at CSUN this past year to hear Michael Beckwith speaking and that is one of the transforming things he had said. I had forgotten about it and facebook had this application where they compiled various status updates from over the year and I came across it again. At just the right timing as it always happens that way.
Many challenges have come to me this year and they all have and are continuing to push me forward...or would the correct thing be to say inward.... Well in all reality it could always be worse and yet it could always be better as well. I believe everything is all in life's lessons and plans anyways. I feel like times seem to be harder when obstacles comes because the obstacles change the equilibrium that I was riding on beforehand. It's all in learning. Sometimes circumstances simply push me into certain emotions like tears, sadness, anger, depression, happiness, laughter, joy, smiling, peace. I suppose now as I grow as a human it does get easier to bounce back to the center...or maybe I just give it over to God more quickly now.
I ponder many things...I enjoy pondering. Sometimes it does me good and sometimes I come to the point where I give it to God. The truth is that I really cannot handle anything on my own- NOTHING...that's why I give it to God as I understand Him. My relationship with God today is my saving grace. I have tailored it to me- and I appreciate all religions and all facets of life, knowings, and understandings. All that I've learned thus far has given such a substantial degree of peace of mind, heart, body, and soul. I am truly and ever grateful to be in this place today because I know all the other ways I have felt and been otherwise.
So yes, it is true. Challenge has made me discover the gifts within me.
Many challenges have come to me this year and they all have and are continuing to push me forward...or would the correct thing be to say inward.... Well in all reality it could always be worse and yet it could always be better as well. I believe everything is all in life's lessons and plans anyways. I feel like times seem to be harder when obstacles comes because the obstacles change the equilibrium that I was riding on beforehand. It's all in learning. Sometimes circumstances simply push me into certain emotions like tears, sadness, anger, depression, happiness, laughter, joy, smiling, peace. I suppose now as I grow as a human it does get easier to bounce back to the center...or maybe I just give it over to God more quickly now.
I ponder many things...I enjoy pondering. Sometimes it does me good and sometimes I come to the point where I give it to God. The truth is that I really cannot handle anything on my own- NOTHING...that's why I give it to God as I understand Him. My relationship with God today is my saving grace. I have tailored it to me- and I appreciate all religions and all facets of life, knowings, and understandings. All that I've learned thus far has given such a substantial degree of peace of mind, heart, body, and soul. I am truly and ever grateful to be in this place today because I know all the other ways I have felt and been otherwise.
So yes, it is true. Challenge has made me discover the gifts within me.
Wednesday, April 28, 2010
It's been awhile
I realize today how sacred it is, right where I stand. All of the ancestors that came before me that I could BE today. The amazing lineage which I am proud to be a strand of. The support which helps me stand and breathe when I am weak. The sunrise and sunset- the shining moon and stars. The trees and dirt. Even the concrete, freeways and buildings.
I am grateful for the bittersweet because it gives me contrast for the savory honey. I am grateful for the sorrow because when I come to the joy I know where I came from. And I know that even in the midst of darkness- one persons light can make it melt away. I know this because of my Mother's, Grandma's, and Great-Grandma's hugs and kisses. This is why I have a waterfall of love to share with the world because it is so given to me. I know only this. This is all I need.
Racquel
I am grateful for the bittersweet because it gives me contrast for the savory honey. I am grateful for the sorrow because when I come to the joy I know where I came from. And I know that even in the midst of darkness- one persons light can make it melt away. I know this because of my Mother's, Grandma's, and Great-Grandma's hugs and kisses. This is why I have a waterfall of love to share with the world because it is so given to me. I know only this. This is all I need.
Racquel
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Love
I feel love in my veins...like the blood within me...it sustains me...is me...I know of so much beauty, light, grace, mercy, blessings, which are bestowed upon me every moment of every days...thoughts are for paupers of the poor in mind...I am more wise when I have no thoughts...wisdom is knowing...Love is knowing...and I know him so well that I hold fast to this knowing...even though he is not yet here- he is because I love him.
Monday, January 11, 2010
CHANGE
I am ready to make some changes in my life beginning right now. Many miracles have already manifested for me and I feel very hopeful and feel that I have heavens full support in becoming an ever improving individual. Self discipline is self gratifying and it is time. Time to be what I know I am and cleave the wood ever more. To reveal the innermost piece that is me.
Time to walk the path. Today is 1/11/10 this is a special number January 11th 2010 the date where I've made the conscious decision to turn my life over yet again from the place which I now stand. Turning it over that I may access a new part of me. Just like I did on September 19th 2004. Now I'm ready to dig deeper no matter how painful it may seemingly be. Because I know of the fruits.
I'm ready and willing.
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